練習 Learning- from alang

We are all learning, all the time. It's hard not to--because even to run away, how to run away, to run away completely, we need to learn.

我們都在練習，無時無刻的練習，想不練習都很難，因為連逃避、怎麼逃避、完全的逃避、也需要很辛苦的練習

We are trying so hard to learn, subconsciously, to be free, to be resolved, to understand, to be stronger, to be complete.
But for learning, it will never end.

我們拚命或不自覺的練習著，好讓我們有一天，終於自在了、釋懷了、解決了、明白了、更強了、完成了
但練習，是永遠練習不完的

Learning to think, and you will need to learn not to think to much
練習會了思考，就得開始練習什麼時候不該想太多

Learning not to be hurt, and you will need to learn not to hurt others
練習會了不再輕易被別人傷害，才發現又該練習怎麼不去輕易的傷害別人

Learning to be stronger, and you will start learning to forgive
練習會了自己要堅強，就開始練習對別人原諒

Learning to be confident, and you will start learning to be modest
練習會了自信，就開始練習謙虛

Learning to earn, and you will have to learn how to spend
練習會了賺錢，就又得練習錢怎麼花

Learning to stand under the lime light, and you will have to learn how to hide in the quite and dark corner
練習會了站在最亮眼的地方，才發現還得練習怎麼適時地躲在安靜的暗處

Learning to forget, and you will need to learn the emptiness that comes after
練習會了遺忘，又得練習自己什麼感覺都沒有的空虛

Learning about the beautiful things, and you will need to learn how to maintain
and learn how to leave, how to face them, when you no longer wish to maintain
練習怎麼美好，又得練習怎麼維持
然後練習不想維持時怎麼離開、練習再也不能維持時怎麼面對

For me
most of the learning, is not purely for myself
they are all about others
對我來說，大部分的練習，都不是最純粹的自己，都跟自己以外的事物有關

Because we start to learn for how the others see us, and then start to learn how to see them
因為別人怎麼對我們怎麼看我們而開始練習、也練習自己該怎麼看別人怎麼對別人

How have I been learning?
I ask myself sometimes. The self who seems to learn everything so well.
我練習得很好嗎？我有時這麼問自己，問那個看起來好像什麼都可以練習的很好的自己

In fact, I know
I have not been learning well enough
not at all
Because I did't want to learn at all
Because when I am learning, I am learning upon the others
其實我知道一點也不好
因為我不想練習
因為在我練習的時候，就等於也拿了別人來練習

But still, I have to keep learning
Because that's the only thing I can do
Because there are so many things
that I don't know
但我還是得不停的練習
因為我就是只能練習
因為我很多的事都不懂

How have I been learning?
I ask myself sometimes. The self who thinks I haven't been learning anything well enough
and then, before knowing the answer
I hear myself saying
我練習得很好嗎？我有時這麼問自己，問那個心裡總是覺得什麼都練習的不夠好的自己
然後，在還沒聽到答案的然後，就聽見自己說

Good luck, you have been learning better
than yesterday
加油，你已經比昨天練習的更好了