I'll never find someone who is going to do that for me
I'll never find someone who is going to do that for me
I'll never find someone who is going to do that for me
I'll never find someone who is going to do that for me
I'll never find someone who is going to do that for me
I'll never find someone who is going to do that for me
I'll never find someone who is going to do that for me
I'll never find someone who is going to do that for me
I'll never find someone who is going to do that for me
I'll never find someone who is going to do that for me
I'll never find someone who is going to do that for me
I'll never find someone who is going to do that for me
I'll never find someone who is going to do that for me
I'll never find
I'll never find
I'll never find
I'll never find
I'll never find
I'll never find
I'll never find
I'll never find
I'll never find
I'll never find
I'll never find
I'll never
never
never
never
never
never
never
never
never
never
never
never
never
never
never
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never
never
never

Are you still waiting?
Are you still waiting?

Then tell me what I am
what I am?
Tell me

要开始学习啦。
叫唤了一个多月了，因为受了点小刺激于是决定CAP不拿到4.9誓不罢休。其实期望值往往会比实际情况高，所以期望也订得高一点吧。
啊，真的不是想随便叫唤叫唤的。
真的要开始学习了。哪还能再这么不紧不慢不急不缓的下去啊。

今年是否可谓break up year. 一入年分手的消息便一层层接踵而来，几乎难以置信。
还有昨天听说了的一只一直很喜欢的狗狗与女友分手的消息。不知道了，不知道了。别人的事情，也许还是不要管的了。
只是后来一直笼罩头顶的莫名的沉重。
晚上带了个小罐头去看了一下狗狗。没有想象中的模样。我是不知内情的，所以没多问。有点同情喜欢上双鱼的女孩子。几乎是注定的悲痛。
看到她的时候她还笑着问我：“你怎么在这转啊？”
眼睛红红。
听得心痛。
自以为是的看着别人的事。近乎忘我的逃避自己。
也许只有最开始不在一起，才能避免分手的伤痛？
让我渐渐从这个沉迷的泥沼中爬出来吧。

一直想抽出时间写写这几天过年的日子。然而却一直写了又删写了再删。美丽的回忆一到笔下全成了乏味的流水帐。
流水帐就流水帐吧。我也只是想很多年之后，还能清晰或者模糊的记得那时近乎疯狂的海带与洗刷刷，被我们的嘈杂引来的面对一地烟酒掏出相机又摇着头放回去的security guard，做了一桌吃了几天的八宝汤咖喱炸小鸡翅，记得初一晚放着会吱吱叫着吓人的美丽烟花，记得拎着饺子从表姐家回来的可乐，以及想象中的大五有趣的表情。
那一场似是而非的代打dota vs 胖崎。初三与小冰逛街买到的黑漆皮nike dunk. 还有假期最后一天独自在屋内的黑暗中留下了眼泪。两手空空的走向你的屋子，想着如果大门是锁着的就回去了。
潮热的热带气候中的冰冷。近乎的彻夜未眠。

可乐说我怎么什么破烂都要留着不舍得丢。C盘里也是一堆。不然怎么电脑速度那么慢。哪天给你清清吧。
是否记忆中也在一点一点积存着影响速度与内存的破烂们。
我却只想把这一切一切，曾经的疯狂，感动，悲伤与抑郁，都清清楚楚地记着。